Wyatt. He's important to Sarah, and I respect him for that. No matter how shitty of a person I personally think he is, I always have that respect towards him. Because he can make her happy and he's good to her... (Most of the time)
But what have I ever done to him? I've said maybe 10 words to the guy since I knew he existed.
He hated my brother Alex. And Alex use to call him a fagget to me. I didn't know Wyatt though, so I could have cared less.
Then I met him. I had no problem with him.
The issue is that his current or ex? girlfriend, Ciara Affatati dated Alex. And he loved her deeply until she broke his heart and cheated on him with Sam Summers. Making me despise both of them because I had to watch Alex, my favorite brother cry for 4 hours. I had to help him feel better. It KILLED me to see my brother like that.
And I held that against Sam and Ciara for a good while. Sometimes holding a grudge is necessary.
Then I had Radio with Sam and wanted to shoot him every day. Until I got to know him.
And who'd have thunk it. He ended up being one of my good friends!!
We got to know each other, and we became great friends, before AND after he figured out Alex was my brother. We're still friends to this day.
I HATED Ciara though. Until I had choir with her. Then I gave up on this feud. I talked to her, and now her and I are even better friends than me and Sam. WEIRD.
But point is, Wyatt hates me because I use to be rude to Ciara for cheating on my brother.
Even now that Ciara and I are friends, he. will. not. let. it. go.
He treats me like SHIT. And at first, I didn't give two fucks about what Wyatt thought.
But now it's starting to bother me a lot.
I hate when people talk badly about me, because I feel as though I don't deserve a good 90% of what people say about me.
People judge and talk shit before getting to know who I actually am...
Wyatt says HORRIBLE things about me... And as much as I don't want to admit it, it really drags down my confidence level... Which is already in the negatives as it is.
Every time Sarah tells me what Wyatt says and thinks about me, it hurts more than it should.
It's not that I care what WYATT specifically thinks, it's more of the fact that ANYONE thinks that about me, it hurts...
And Sarah tries to stand up for me. I appreciate that more than she knows.
Now Wyatt is mad because I "stole" his best friend... He's pissed off that Ryan is dating me. He says I changed him and that they never hang out anymore because he's always with me.
HOW IS THAT MY FAULT?
I'm not the type of girl that glues her boyfriend to her hip. He can be wherever he wants. He can hangout with anybody he wants. I don't care. He has freedom. He chooses to be with me over his friends. That's HIS doing, not mine, asshole. If you have a problem with it, talk with Ryan about it! Don't spread shit about me because I'm his girlfriend.
And either way, Ryan isn't gonna appreciate what you're saying about me, so you might as well just go to HIM about your disapprovals... It's up to him what happens about it.
Also, the thing that bothers me most about people talking shit about me, is that nobody sticks up for me.
I'm on my own.
In Scio, (where I lived before coming here to Sisters) my friends ALWAYS had my back. Especially Richard... My practical brother. He does what Wyatt does for Sarah.
If anyone sad ANYTHING about me, he would shove them against lockers. He would threaten them and yell at them to knock it off because I didn't deserve thier bullshit. Once, he heard someone say shit about me from across the room, and he stood up at lunch and yelled at him for it. Richard always had my back.
Then I moved here and NOBODY does that. I swear, I'm the only one who sticks up for my friends anymore.
If I hear someone talking shit or doing bad things to my friends, I get PISSED. I'm also really protective and kinda territorial of my friends. So if I hear anything like that, I WILL stand up for them. I always do. I find whoever it is, and make sure they stop.
Nobody else does that... for anyone.
None of my friends even attempt to stop shit talkers. They hear shit about me, tell me about it, and don't do anything else. It's like they think I'll take care of it.
How can I take care of it if they're talking about ME? It doesn't work that way. As much as I wish it did.
I'm not trying to sound greedy or something, it's just that when NOBODY stands up for you, it hurts like hell. It makes me feel like people don't really care...
Whatever. Point is, I shouldn't be letting WYATT get to me. But I do anyway. Because I'm hella sensitive.
And I'm just gonna have to live with it. Because he's a part of Sarah's and Ryan's lives.
And as much as I wish I didn't, I will always have respect for him because he treats them well.
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