My Confidence Level

For ONCE, my life has decided to bless me with confidence.

This last weekend, I was hanging out with my awesome friends, Sarah, Nick, Mackenzie, Megan, Hailey, Brogin and Ashlee. We were being ourselves, acting crazy, making ridiculous jokes only we understand, etc..
And it made me realize how great we are... That might sound cocky, but that's not how I mean it.
I simply mean that we are absolutely insane, and yet we're happy being that way.
We act like fools, but we have fun.
We have no shame in being ourselves.

Mackenzie and I are both really into the scenester looks.
We're both kinda going for that style.
So, once again, Mackenize did my hair.
We bought hair dye, bleached my hair, and then dyed half of it red.
It's more of the scenester look I'm going for, but the red wasn't as bright and bold like I was wanting.
It still looks awesome, and when my blond and red blends, it's like fire, just as Mackenzie said it would.

I love it, and honestly, I think it makes me look good.
That's probably the only time I have ever thought that I actually DO look good, despite people telling me how "pretty" I am..,
My confidence level was so low before. I've never thought of myself as pretty, or even cute.
And I've always been self conscious of my personality.

But now, I've come to realize that, I am who I am.I should love myself for who I am. Because frankly, I'm really not that bad.
I have a weird, unique personality and heart, but I should be proud of that.
Mackenzie and the rest of my weird, awesome friends have helped me come to this conclusion.
They are proud to be who they are.
It's really inspiring.
And I love spending time with them. I can fit in and not be worried about how I look or what I say.
I never have to worry about impressing anybody. I can be myself and they love me for it.

Today, I woke up and was in a good mood.
I did my makeup and left the house feeling confident about my look, AND who I am inside.
I've been listening to 3 songs today.
YoungBlood by The Naked and Famous.
Good Morning by Chamillionaire.
Born This Way by Lady Gaga.

Yeahh, I know... Not my usual music choice.
But it was the lyrics.
Youngblood always makes me happy and confident.
Good Morning pretty much is about having haters, and not caring what other people think.
Born This Way is obviously about loving yourself for who you are and not changing to please other people.
The three songs were my soundtrack today. Because it was reminding me to be proud of myself.

And now, I'm sitting at home, thinking about my boyfriend, watching Ouran High School Host Club (anime), and waiting for YoungLife at 7:27. (Yes, that is actually when it starts.)
I'm in a good mood.