Ryan

Babe, you're absolutely everything to me.
I know we've been through HELL together already in our relationship, but I love you and that will never change.
We have both felt so much pain, but that never breaks us because we know we're better than that.
We know that our relationship will last, because even if we are weak as individuals, as a couple, we are strong. We have and will continue to make it through all the bullshit thrown at us.

I fell for you back in September, about 6 months ago.
I joined Radio... And it was probably the smartest decision I've ever made, and honestly, I have Maria to thank for that, because I was considering being a TA instead.
And then I met you.
We instantly clicked.
We had similar music taste, which was a big deal for both of us.
And as my Depression attacked me on a daily basis, you and Drewbie let me go into the Radio room and breathe as I vented to Drew, because I didn't know you enough to talk directly to you.
You both listened to me and gave me the advice that you could.

I liked you a lot. And the only person who knew about it was Maria, and she kept trying to make it obvious.
Honestly, there are times when I despise Maria. But there ARE times when I love her too.
This was not one of those times.
She kept saying you and I played "Cat and mouse". That when I looked away from you, you would look at me. Almost every time and that we supposedly were flirting a lot?

Then your birthday came around and I embarrassed myself because that's what I'm good at.

We talked, you gave me your number, and from there we texted every day.
We opened up to each other enough that we clicked even MORE.
We helped each other with our Depression problems, and before I knew it, I was head over heels in love with you.
Everyone knew. And you did too, which I was unaware of.

You treated me with respect and we got along so well.

There were many days when we had conversations about my love for you and how you didn't feel the same way.
But every single time you had to let me down, it never broke me love. I never stopped loving you. I always had hope, even though I thought it was a waste of time.
Figures, for the first time ever, it wasn't. It wasn't false hope.

You told me you loved me too and I will absolutely never forget that day. So much happened that day that I remember so clearly. I remember absolutely every feeling, thought and action that I performed that day.
It's so vivid in my mind.

And then for the next 2 days, we were a "thing". Until you asked me out. I'm so glad I stayed after school that day, even though I thought I was leaving.
You kissed me after my ex boyfriend passed by. And it was hilarious. You kissed me, and then asked me to be your girlfriend. Of course, I said yes. And Sarah simply said "It's about fucking time!"

Our relationship has been extremely rocky, and some people seriously thought we weren't gonna last. Many people had doubts about our relationship. But my friends stayed supportive, even when I was in pain.
My mind went to so many things, but they helped me straighen out my thoughts and help me get through it.

We are still dating. It's been a month and a week.
You can say the simplest things that make my heart flutter.
"I love you, baby." Those are the best four words I have ever heard.
I get chills every time.

Ryan, I love you.