I Know I'm Hard To Understand... That's What Scares Me

I know I confuse people.
It frustrates me.
When I try to be REAL with somebody, and they don't understand my logic.
If I tell somebody something that means a lot to me and they don't understand why, no matter how hard I try to explain it.
I hate that I don't know how to express my passions about certain things.
Sometimes I just can't express it in words... It's really frustrating.
But I'm scared to show people what I mean. Because I feel if they SEE it, then they know too much.
And then I'm vulnerable.
Which is one of the worst feelings in my book.
Being vulnerable scares me.
Which is why I never sing in front of people.
It's not all self consciousness. It's also I'm scared of being vulnerable.
And singing... Putting my emotion into it, makes me vulnerable.
That's why I'm alone when I sing and draw...
When I do stuff I'm REALLY love to do, I feel like I have to be alone..
And hide it.
Because if I don't... People can see the real me. The passionate, emotional girl that I am inside.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0YuSg4mts9E&ob=av2e
This song... is a song I put a lot of emotion into.
When I listen to it, it brings out my inner feelings.
I listen to it when I'm in the best mood ever, and the worst mood ever.
Becuase when I'm happy, it just puts me in an even better mood.
And when I'm sad, it's like it gets it... how I feel.. And it helps get rid of my emotions.

And that's just another thing nobody will understand.