I don’t think I have ever been attacked by so much pain all at once. I remember that one night he helped me through, months ago. That worst night. That pain was gradual. I just felt the same amount of pain, all in about 5 seconds. I feel like I just got stabbed. I don’t even know what to do anymore. I am at a complete loss for words. For thoughts. For actions. All I can do is lay here. Motionless.