I'm So Frustrated Because It's As If I'm Not Allowed To Be Happy

My relationships with people have way too many conditions.
Am I the only person in this town who doesn't judge my friends based on their decisions/thoughts/actions?
Am I the only friend who loves you no matter what?

Yeah, I'm being dumb. I'm making rebellious decisions... WHAT ELSE IS NEW? I've been like this my whole life. It never bothered anyone before, so why is it now?

Plus, my decisions don't effect YOUR lives, now do they? So why can't you guys just be happy being my friend? I'm happy living my life how I do. It comes with MANY consequences of course, but let ME handle those. If I need help, I'll go to you.

PLEASE... I'm begging you guys.
Stay with me.
Even thought you don't approve.
Please.... Stay with me so I don't have to break my own rule... The rule of changing myself to please others...
I shouldn't have to... So please don't make me.