Not That Anyone Reads My Blog Anymore...

Maybe I should just stop posting... Nobody cares, anyway.

Here's the gist of what's been going on:
My mom and I are always fighting.
My grades are going to shit.
I'm behind on my community service because my social life is more important to me.
My mom hates talking to me in any sense, so being at home is like being in a room full of people you don't like and don't get along with.
I miss my brothers like crazy.
I contacted Brittany (my sister in law) and asked if I could move in with her and my bros. She said yes. After school, I'm free to live with them. They'd move into our old house that I grew up in and we'd be down the street from Cassidy again, like old times...
I decided I didn't want to think about Oregon City too soon. So I'm looking for a place to live in Sisters so I can continue to go to school here.
Sarah got a boyfriend after we went to prom, and ever since, she has seemed really distant and un-caring.
Me and my friends are all having shitty days.
I am not motivated AT ALL anymore.
I'm quitting weed officially. Except for 4/20. THAT'S IT. My natural highs are SO much better than that of marijuana. And it just puts me at risk of getting in trouble.
I have been eating less, simply because our house is LITERALLY empty of food. Mom decides it's a better idea to hang out at the bar than get food for us at home.
Mom still won't get me medication, and convinces herself that I'm okay and that my emotions consist only of being happy.
I keep making Ryan worry about me, and I hate that. Because then he gets sad and I'm the cause of it.
My phone is turned off til Thursday, so I haven't really been able to talk to him.
People at school are becoming more and more asshole-ish.
3 of my best friends are moving away to Eugene.
My mom (shocker.. We're back to her.) likes to get mad at me ALL THE TIME. Most of the time her logic is unreasonable. She finds ANYTHING to get mad at me for. Wee.
I haven't been able to focus on anything except Ryan and my own situation at home.
I'm losing even MORE sleep than usual, which is horrible because I already have insomnia.
Etc. Etc. Etc...
Mom's home now... So let's see how this goes... She's gonna bitch at me.. I know she will, because I didn't go to community service. Awesome...