I hate having bad chills...
It happens when I know something bad is gonna happen.
Or when I know something is gonna go wrong, like someone I care about will get Depressed..
Or like now, when people hesitate.
Hesitation KILLS me.
It hurts to sit and wait for a response.
Ryan did that yesterday. We were in the car, and I said "I love you." And he was spacing out, so he didn't respond for a minute. And I got that stress build up feeling you get when you're about to cry.
He said it back, but it seemed half-assed like he didn't mean it. I KNOW HE DID.
But my emotions always go to worse-case scenario.
It just happened again. But he responded.
I'm just paranoid....
So many people have lied to me before.
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