NEVER AGAIN.

What was suppose to be an Amnesia party, turned out to be a full blown PARTY at my house...
I was so excited in the beginning, because I loveD being drunk. Ryan came over and I thought it would be awesome. Get drunk, hang out with friends, spend time with boyfriend, play some Amnesia...

Nope. Opposite. Hanging out with friends became MAKING OUT with them... Spending time with Ryan turned into being pulled every which direction that wasn't by Ryan. I was probably with him for an hour total... TOPS, the entire time... Oh, and playing Amnesia turned into throwing up and crying.

Awesome. Best party ever..... TOTAL SARCASM.

God I didn't want this to fucking happen. I wanted to get decently drunk and play Amnesia while hanging out with friends.
What happened, was we all got completely SHITFACED... Ashlee, Ken and Loginn all made out with me that night. And Ryan kissed Loginn and Brogin.
FUCKING GREAT, GUYS.

I'm sorry. But I've been depressed as SHIT all night and all morning. Now I have every right to be pissed and you have to agree with me.
Reasons:
1. I don't know WHY the fuck Ryan and Loginn kissed. WHAT THE HELL. I thought you were talking about HUNTER, not kissing my boyfriend!!
2. Brogin, I know you're attracted to Ryan. Okay, but that doesn't give you the right to persuade me into being okay with you kissing him because I was drunk. PLUS you were trying to go further...
3. Ashlee, Ken, and Loginn.... YES I AM BI. But I HAVE A BOYFRIEND. So you guys taking advantage of me is fucked.
4. When I tell you guys to SHUT THE FUCK UP AND BE QUIET... I mean it. I don't mean be quiet for 5 minutes and then start yelling again. I mean SHUT THE FUCK UP.
5. When I lock myself in a room, obviously that means I am trying to get myself out of a situation I shouldn't be placed in. So when I leave, LET ME GO. Unless you're truly concerned for me, like Brogin was when he knew I was cutting myself.
6. When I'm obviously sad, and you guys are cracking jokes about what I'm crying over... Yeah, not appreciated. I wanted to kick all of you out of my house then and there.

Ugh. I'm sorry guys...
You don't understand how bad this is...
Ryan and I's relationship will never be the same... And you all took part in making that happen.
YES I UNDERSTAND WE WERE DRUNK AS SHIT.
But still....
I don't want to do without Ryan and now that our relationship just got fucked over, I can't even fathom what will happen next...