My Message For Ryan

Ryan: When I first met you, I was attracted to you simply because you were hot. Then as I got to know you, you became everything I ever wanted in a guy. Everytime my depression hit and I went into the radio room early so I could chill out, you and Drew just listened to me.You let me go in and do whatever I needed to do to feel better. Whether it was lay down and listen to music, or vent.. You listened to me before we were even friends. You were concerned and you helped me. After you gave me your number and we started texting, you became my main priority. You meant so much to me and I didn't even understand why. I liked you a lot. Not just because you were helping me, but because of your personality. You were similar to me in a lot of ways, but we also had our differences. Then I found out we had decently similar music taste and that was a big deal for me because music is my life. We became closer and closer friends and before I knew it, I was drop dead in love with you. So I waited around. I waited and waited and waited with what I thought was a false hope... That you would someday fall in love with me and we could be a happy couple. But you turned me down several times, saying you could never love me in that way. And I still stayed. I waited because I knew I would never find anyone else like you. And eventually you came around and gave me hope. You gave me the only thing I wanted. Your love. And before I knew it, you were kissing me... And then we were going out. And it's been the best 3 and a half months of my life. You treat me as if I'm important. Like I'm this beautiful girl with nothing wrong with her. You treat me like I'm perfect... Even though I'm not... You give me so much more than I ever hoped for. You make me so happy... Everything you do amazes me... You're perfect to me... And you're perfect FOR me. I've never felt like this towards anyone before.... I've never had chills like you give me... Just when you look at me... It makes me feel gorgeous... You talk to me, and listening to your voice is like being in a dream... I could listen to you talk forever... Your eyes are beautiful... And when they stare at me, I can't help but look away sometimes because I feel like I'm not good enough for you in any way... You're so much better than me... I didn't understand how someone like you could fall in love with someone like me. But you did. <3 Even the slightest touch sends shivers up my spine... Whether you touch my face, my arm, my leg, or anything... Knowing you love me enough to touch me makes me feel incredible... that i'm even worth your time and energy. When you pull my chin to you and kiss me.. It's indescribable... It makes me want to cry... Good tears.. But enough that I get so emotional that I have to keep kissing you in order to NOT cry. And then you do stuff like taking me to the valley or the beach because you know it makes me happy.... And you do it JUST BECAUSE it makes me happy... I don't understand what I did to deserve you... Because I know I didn't do anything... I don't deserve you, but you love me anyway.... I don't know how to explain how much I love you becasue it's impossible.... I love you more than words can say... There aren't enough words in the world that could even come CLOSE to explaining my love you correctly. You've become my everything... my life and my world... It's all you.. Because you're the most important thing to me in my life... Even if I didn't have music or art, or friends... I could survive, as long as I have you. And that's a BIG DEAL. I hope you understand how much that means...