Our group from the beginning.
Me, Brogin, Ken, Mackenzie, Ashlee, Hailey, Tessa, Meganne, Maria, Bert, Alaina. I'm sure there were a few more.
Now look at us.
It's turned to this:
Me, Ken, Brogin.
Ashlee, Hailey, Tessa.
Maria and Alaina.
Bert who is still with us, but is usually with Tasha.
And Mackenzie, Meganne, Jake, Keegin and them.
At first, I was really saddened by it. But today confirmed some things.
1. People change.
2. Shit happens... And it all happens for a reason.
3. TRUE FRIENDS, are the ones that stick by you through EVERYTHING.
I've come to terms with the fact that Mackenzie likes me a hell of a lot less than she use to...
I think it's the same thing with Brogin too.
Hell, even Keegin has noticed her attitude change towards everyone and he's even bothered by it, but is trying to remain intact with her.
I tried. I lost.
She says wait til Summer.
But I say, what's gonna change?
I hope we can be friends still. I hope we can still be close like we were.. But it's starting to look like she's given up on our friendship. I think she's moving on.
I'm convinced that Jake has kinda got her in her own little world now.
I love Jake, don't get me wrong, but it's hard to show him that we're friends, when Kenz either gets bothered that anyone hugs him or talks to him, or that he follows her around.
Also, Kenz is the same way. It is impossible to talk to either of them nowadays.
Kenzie's stopped caring. And I understand she has so much shit going on, but that's never a reason to drop your friends.
Anyway... We're all moving on from that. From all of it, honestly. I've talked with Brogin and Ken and we all realize that we're kinda all each other has now.
It seems even our tight friend group is turning into backstabbers, liars, and fake friends.
I don't know who to trust anymore..
This has all been effecting me so much that it's hard to even trust Sarah recently... She sometimes says things as a joke and I get seriously mad. It happened today in Bio... I almost walked out of the room before the test.
I don't know why. But what I do know, is this:
Summer will solve some of these problems.
Time will DEFINITELY solve these problems.
And those I still have, we need to stick together.
Ken said something last night. Something that didn't really transfer in me until now.
"Why are you sorry? You're sorry for feeling and having emotions? We aren't going to hate you for that."
Ryan has said that before, but to hear it from her too, made me realize that they REALLY are here for me until the end.
They love me no matter what. And that's returned right back to them.
Some people get pissed when people feel something other than happiness.
Well sorry.
Can't help it.
Also, it seems the most NONjudgmental people ever, have turned into THE most judgmental people ever.
But it doesn't matter. I'm still gonna be here for those people when they fall. When they need me, I'll support them. Even if they don't support me.
It's called staying TRUE, and being the bigger person.
The point is....
A lot has changed.. Hell, EVERYTHING has changed.
And I'm keeping the people who mean most to me, close. Because since I've lost about everyone else in a spans of 3 weeks, it made me realize who are true and who aren't.
Ken and Brogin... The three of us are friends now until death do us part. <3
Maybe things will go back to normal next year... Maybe they wont..
But there's always this:
Sometimes things fall apart, so that better things can fall together.
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