i See You Everyday... Why Do I Still Miss You?

Baby... I love you so much...
It hurts me that you don't understand.

I'm absolutely crazy about you and I wish you felt the same...
You're everything to me...
I know we both have our lives to deal with... But I love you and I want you to be a part of my life... Despite how hard it might be... Whether it be difficult to spend time with me, or if it's just plain out difficult to put up with me.

Ryan. You're seriously perfect for me...
Yeah, sometimes we aren't happy.
Yeah, sometimes we argue.
But what couple doesn't?
All healthy relationships have bumps in the road. Which is why I have confidence in us... I hope you do too...
Because I know we can make it through everything... As long as you don't give up on me...

I wish you understood how much you mean to me.

And now, here I am. About to pass out, but thinking of you constantly.
I wish you were here to cuddle with me, and tell me that everything will be fine and that no matter what happens, you'll be with me.
I wish you were here to lay with me as I fall asleep to the sound of your heartbeat.
I wish you could be with me every night.

It would make sleeping so much easier for me.
Maybe then I would have less troubles sleeping.
Maybe then I wouldn't wake up in the middle of the night, 5-10 times a night.
Maybe then I could sleep soundly, because I would know that you're with me and that you still would be there when I woke up...To say good morning and kiss me on the forehead like you do all the time when we're alone.
In general, I wish you were here...
I know you don't want to be around me ALL the time....
But, goddamn it...

Baby... I love you more than words can say.... <3