Home Alone, With A Sharp Pain

I'm laying on my bed, with tears streaming down both of my eyes.
I tried distracting myself, but nothing is working.
My iPod is at Sarah's house in Tollgate.

I feel so alone... I feel like NOBODY wants to talk to me right now. Nobody wants to be around me.
Nobody wants anything to do with me.
I feel like Mackenzie wanted me to leave, so I left.
I feel like Ryan doesn't want to talk to me, which is why I have to texts and no replies to any of my messages on Facebook.
I feel like Sarah doesn't want to talk to me either, since she isn't responding too.
I don't know what to do. I almost started cutting again. But I stopped, because I know how upset Ryan would get if he found out.. Especially with him being gone and not being able to do anything about it...

My pillow is drenched in tears... At least all this crying will help get my emotions out...

But... Just like yesterday morning, I'm alone. And there's nothing anyone can do about it. I just have to take deep breaths, try to cope, and make it through this hurt.