Music Therapy, PLEASE Get Me Through This.

Why am I so stupid????
I keep doing things without trying to.
I'm making life SO much more harder on myself when I'm not trying to.
I'm just trying to be real and be honest but it's getting me in trouble with my own emotions.
More and more cutting becomes SO appealing. The only reason I'm not is because Ryan and Jake would be so upset with me.
GOD I wish I could just fucking disappear...
Someone seriously needs to put me in my right mind again.
I'm losing it. Ugh.
I'm so incredibly stressed out it's driving me up a wall.
It's like a mini panic attack. My heart is pounding out my chest.

I need to calm down... Music therapy, PLEASE get me through this.