Graduation

Graduation is something I have never dreaded so much.
Seriously started crying today during 4th period. So I went to the nurse's office with Lara and we both fell asleep.
I was so stressed. Sleep helps.
There's so much I want to say, but I'm not sure how to do it.

Pretty much.
Ryan...
I love you.  I love you more than I have ever loved anyone.
And I'm dead terrified to lose you and live without you around every day.
I don't want to, and am not going to ask you to stay. Because like I said before, that's fucked up.
You have a life you need to live and if you need to live outside Sisters, then so be it.
But I don't want you to leave me.
I'm scared that when you graduate you're gonna leave and not come back.
You're gonna break up with me because I'm a high schooler and you'll be in college..
You're gonne meet someone else...
I'm not the only punk-rock girl out there...
You're gonna forget about me and fall in love with another college girl.
I can't lose you..
But I know I'm at risk of that.
That's why I'm nervous about our relationship so much.
Because I love you enough to do things I wouldn't do with anyone else...
But I don't want to get too close to you and then have you leave me..
I don't know what to do.
I love you so much.
This is why I'm Depressed.
I don't want you to disappear....
I want you to be my Invincible forever.