Looking Back On That Day When Everyone Was Out To Get Me

You'd think it would be like any other day. I would forget it, right?
Nope.
Not this one. I remember everything about that day. How overwhelmed my heart was.
Too much stress, too much pain, and too much attack for one day.
I remember walking into school, feeling hopeless.
I had my iPod in my hand, as always... I was clenching my fists to stop myself from crying.
Being around people was too much for me. It was like I was claustrophobic in a huge room.
I felt as though everyone was watching me, and everyone was judging me.
And a lot of people were that day.
I remember being scared.
Frightened of living like that.
Frightened of myself.
I remember going to my classes, but not doing anything in any of them. Not listening to the teachers, not responding to anybody. Just listening as hard as I could to the lyrics of the song that saved my life.
I remember walking through the halls, trying to hide my face in my hair, and not grab anybody's attention. I just wanted to leave.
I wanted out of the school, out of Sisters, out of sight.
I wanted to be alone with my music and my art.
Walking through the halls in school is chaotic enough as it is.
But being Depressed and stressed, and having major panic and anxiety attacks over small shit, makes it Hell.
I remember people... a lot of different people who I am fully aware do not like me, getting on my case. It was as if they all chose to harrass me that day...
I got bumped in the hallway.
People were giving me horrible looks.
They were talking shit about me right in front of my face.
They were judging me.
They were literally pushing me around.
I couldn't handle it. I clenched my fists so hard, the skin on my hands broke open.
My heart was pounding in my ears. My heart was aching. I was crying inside.
Yes,
I remember that day.
That was before I knew you. Before I was happy.
I will never forget that day.
I just hope I'll never have to relive it.