From The Worst, Came The BEST

Right when things were getting good, they instantly dropped back down...
But from there... Life threw me a homerun, and they shot to the stars.

When I thought I had lost Ryan... We spent 2 days not talking much, just letting the conversation about Graduation die down.
2 days was too much. I caved. I waited for him in the fourth plaza. He saw me, smiled, and hugged me. So we talked. And things were fine.
Then it hit me. I think about the future too much. He's still here, and I'm still here. So, if we're both still here, why not let things run naturally and enjoy the time we have together?

I was happy with this conclusion, too. Until something better came my way.
He texted me...
He was sad.
He was angry.
He was confused.
So, after I gave him time to calm down until he was ready to talk about it, I got his text.

He felt bad he couldn't feel for me how I feel for him. He wishes he could.
I understand that completely. Hormones are not something you can control.
He said I remind him a lot of his ex, and of himself.
He said we could date, and he could probably fall in love with me, but he doesn't want us to break up and lose each other. He's also scared I would hurt myself, badly.
I told him there's nothing to worry about and that no matter what, I will always love him.
He told me it is possible that he could love me. But he's too scared for me, to try.

I love him. There's nobody else. I truly believe he's the one that's perfect for me. I wish wish everything in me that it could work itself out and nothing bad would ever happen with us. I wish we could just get through everything.I wish he could understand my love for him. I wish he loved me back.
But for where we're at.. I'm 100% happy.