The First Line Of Scarlet Is The Most Hypnotic

Some people just do the common "slit, slit, done". Well not me. I'm different.
The first cut... When you feel the pain, but it's almost not like pain... It's like a release of emotions. You feel a moment of stress free - relief.
Then you see the blood make its way out of your skin. It trickles along until your body decides to try to heal the wound, and it clots.
That's when the anxiety starts coming back. So you continue. Enough until you feel a little better.
Not so numb.
Not so not-in-control.
Not so hopeless.
For the time being, you're in control of everything concerning yourself. You're all powerful. You can feel again.
After the first line of liquid red, it gets easier and easier to keep going. The more red you see, the more in the danger zone you are.
But you don't care. Nothing stops you, but you.
And you always know when it's time to stop.