The Dance.

This post is pretty unimportant. But I need to vent it out.

It started off as an amazing day. Kenz and I were getting ready for the dance. We looked like 2 gorgeous scenesters when we were done.
We went to Three Creeks Brewery and had dinner with her whole family. It was nice to go out and laugh and have a good time with my second family.
As awkward as it was when people we knew showed up, it was a good night so far. We ran to my house, grabbed a couple things, I let my mom know the plan for the rest of the weekend, and we were out the door, on our way back to Mackenzie's when the feeling set in.
We had an awesome idea to keep our good moods up. We thought it was going to work.. But it didn't.
On the way to the dance, we listened to some of our favorite songs. Music that were really up beat and party-like.
So we get there...
And we walk in, anxious to see what awaits us.
When we get there, we instantly had fun. Started being ourselves like we planned.
"This dance is OURS. This dance was made for US. We can be OURSELVES and not care what anyone thinks!! Time to have fun and not let anything ruin this night!"
On multiple occassions that came out of mine and Mackenzie's mouths.
We kept repeating it hoping to God that we were right and we could have a good time.
Right off the bat something goes wrong.
The two people we didn't want to see together, showed up.
We avoided them. Danced. Had fun.
Then the preps came along...
After Mackenzie left to go get water, Sarah and I were dancing.
Then here comes Nathan... God. I can get along with him usually, but what the fuck was he thinking, trying to dance with me? Dumbass.
Sooo, I moved away from him.
Continued dancing.
Sarah was making me laugh. And I thought things were fine until Nathan's crowd of preps came along... The kids who hate me. The kids who constantly talk shit about me. They were right next to us, many of them watching me, and talking.
God.
I watch Bailey Bremer and Breanna Perry make their way towards us. Great.
I adore Bailey. I do. But sometimes she has a thick skull. She's been so annoying and obnoxious about Ryan and I. From the first conversation with Sarah she picked up on, she was trying to find out who it was I was in love with. Then she heard our conversation about wrestling, made a guess. Wrong. So, once Ryan and I started dating, she saw us in the hallway hugging and came up to me in 4th period and said "I know who it is now."
Yes, Bailey. Thank you.
Breanna Perry, I cannot stand her. She is so... UGH. I can't even explain it without sounding like an immature brat. But she's so bitchy, obnoxious and she thinks she's miss perfect. Everyone can see through that mask, hunney. Stop pretending. For the love of God.
The two of them come up and dance with Sarah and I... I get it, kinda... Sarah and them are friends. But really? I'm over here trying to have a good night and you guys know we don't hang out anymore. You know that things have changed between us. Why do you think it's a good idea to come over and stare at me, and question where Ryan is?
Whatever.
I'm pretty sure they caught up on how uncomfortable I was feeling, because they left. Of course, that's not to say it's all over.
As the preps next to us move in closer, I could feel my anxiety clawing its way through my body.
Before I lose my mind, I'm out of there.
I find my group. Mackenzie and Keegin knew something happened. So I told them about Bailey and Breanna. I told them about the other preps... And I told them about Nathan trying to dance with me. They were as pissed as I was. Kenz took my face in her hands and said "Hey. This dance is for us. Nobody is ruining this. Let's have fun.
 And we tried to.
Keegin was trying so hard to keep our moods from falling. I appreciate Keegin so much. He's an amazing person.
After "Shake It" we went to get some more water and cool down.
Guess who comes out...
The two people we didn't want to see together. Jessie and Jake.
When they're separate, we adore both of them. When they're together, we want to shoot them both.
It's hard to explain why.
With them trying to talk to us, plus the slight drama of the night already, I was feeling pissed. Kenzie didn't know what to do. We went back inside, but it was no use.
The night was ruined.
They played shit music. All grinding songs and slow songs.
They played 4 or 5 good dance songs and the rest sucked. We were so disappointed with the people who were in charge of this dance. It was so dumb.
So, to save us time, I went and asked if they were going to play and of the songs we had requested multiple times. Answer: no.
Of course not.
So, Kenzie and I look at each other, disgusted at the night. And we get ready to leave early.
As I head into the bathroom, Jessie walks in too. But, hey, it is the girl's room. Jake wasn't around. So I talked to her.
She is so sweet when she isn't with Jake.
She brought up Ryan. She was the 6th person of the night to ask where he was.
God. Guys, yeah. I'm his girlfriend, but I'm not his monther.
He doesn't have to be glued to my hip all the time.
All the questions were getting annoying, but then Jessie continued.
She complimented me on how I looked that night. And I told her about the rest of my plans and she was so nice and happy for me. More than a lot of people are.
Which is nice because Jessie and I just got on good terms.
She hugged me, and I walk out, bumping into Jake.
Awkward.
I tried. I honestly did. To keep the conversation going.
I can't.
So after 6 or 7 words from both osf us, I walk away and go tell Keegin and Sarah that we are leaving.
Mackenzie grabs Brogin, and we all leave, disappointed and pissed off that it went so wrong..
We all speak our minds. The more we spoke about it. the more pissed we all got.
So we got in the car and I could feel it coming.
I had hoped it wouldn't.
My Depression was getting triggered. So, with how exhausted I was, Mackenzie and Brogin played some video games while I texted Jake Heath.
God, I love that kid.
I told him I was feeling triggered, and he instantly sent me a text that made me smile.
It was the last thing I read last night.
"Don't be sad. You're a very beautiful girl, and you have an amazing boyfriend that loves you."
Seriously. People don't give Jake enough credit. Everyone thinks he's an ass, becuase that's the act he puts on.
I've seen through that. And as much as Jake wants to deny it, he smiles every time I say drop the mask.
Because he knows I'm right.
He's become such a close friend to me. And he really is a sweet guy, despite the act.
Since Ryan wasn't responding, I figured he fell asleep already. So, I decided it was time to pass out.
Well, I didn't decide.. My body did.
But I fell into a nice deep sleep.
And I had a crazy messed up dream.