I love your son... Ryan has saved me from my darkest hours more times than I can count. And for the record, I'm just as lost and confused as you are about why Ryan loves me back.
Look, we both struggle with hardcore Depression.
I also have anxiety and come from a past that would shock you to see me still alive today.
So, please... I'm just BEGGING you... Give me a chance.. I'm not a bad person.. I know you guys think I'm a bad influence on Ryan.. That I'm ruining him or something...
I'm trying to keep us both out of trouble, but with how emotional I am, a lot of the time, I need Ryan to be with me so I can be okay and not hurt myself. That's why he stays out late with me sometimes. And then you guys get mad at both him and me. And I don't know how to fix it! I'm trying so hard to make everyone happy, but it seems like the more I'm around, the more you hate me... I can't tell you the amount of times I've cried because all I want is my boyfriend's parents to like me and approve of me... I don't know what to do to make that happen... and I need help.
I come from a past that has made me into who I am today.. And I know it's very possible that you don't care and don't want to hear it. But please... I'm not a bad person.. I try to be the best person I can.
I'm just struggling to survive in life... And Ryan helps me. And I help him....
I hope you can see that as a good thing, because it is.
For a while, Ryan was the ONLY good thing going on in my life... and to be totally honest, if it weren't for him, I wouldn't be here right now. Like I said, he saved me..
He's gotten me through more than I can even begin to explain.
He's everything to me.
We're the couple that can be serious and loving.
We can goof off and joke around with each other and just have a good time.
We can be realistic and mature.
We can be anything we need to be.
Ryan... He means so much to me... And if I don't have him, I don't know what will happen to me...
So please, please, PLEASE just give me a chance... I want you both to love me like I'm family... I want you to care about me and I want us to have a good relationship, so that Ryan and I can be happy together...
Please....
I'm begging you... I'll do anything it takes to get your approval... Just please let Ryan and I stay together..
Please accept me for who I am and take the time to get to know me...
Please...
First let me say I have never said I don’t like you or your relationship with Ryan. I haven’t liked some of the decisions you have made together, and I don’t think you can help each other when you both have depression. But I understand you more than you may think. I WAS you when I was 16, only with even more problems. So let me offer some advice. You need to get some mental health help, medication and counseling, just like Ryan is doing. You need to get a summer job, do well in school, graduate and figure out what you want to do with your life. Then you can learn to love yourself and not need Ryan or any guy to make you whole. I know that you love Ryan, but he can’t be your EVERYTHING. It’s not fair to expect him or any guy to do that. He needs to go to college and figure out who he is and what he wants before he can love and help you or anyone else. We have loved and supported him for the last 18 years, and will continue to love and support him no matter what. Now that he is 18, he makes his own decisions so we aren’t telling him who to love and be with. If you want your relationship to last and grow, you will need to grow, too. That is how to win our trust and love.
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