Baby

i wish i could lay down next to you...
i wish i could hold your hand..
i wish i could kiss you and hug you..
i miss times like that.. when we can cuddle together... when you pull me in closer to you and hold me tight... When you kiss my forehead and tell me you love me... or even when you squeeze my hand to remind me you love me...
or when you looked me in the eye and smiled at me... or when i touched your skin and  saw your goosebumps or felt you react... i miss having your arm to stroke with my fingertips.. I miss the scratch of your stubble on my cheek.. I miss sitting with my legs in your lap, talking for hours... or when you tickled me to make me laugh or smile. and i really miss whenever i tried to get away from you and you held me so tight i couldn't move. <3 it made me feel so loved...
or when you would call me things like "my baby", or "baby girl"..
I miss when you grabbed my lower back and pulled me in close to you to kiss me...
I miss when you would put my face in your hands and kiss me gently.. or the way you ran your hand up and down my legs. I miss the spontaneous kisses on the cheek you would give me when I was least expecting it... I miss talking about our future... I miss laying in the hammock with you at night... i miss laying next to you with your arm around me, and you squeeze me close to you.. i miss the times when i smiled between each kiss... or when i tried talking and you kissed me to shut me up.
I miss when you hugged me really tight...i miss everything...
i would do anything to have it all happen again..