EES A MONDAY!

Woke up with slight Depression, but tried to keep a game face on as I slowly woke myself up and got out of bed to get ready for school.
I threw on clothes and makeup and didn't care that I looked unattractive.
Got to school. Not the best morning. But was greeted by Tessa with "EES A MONDAY." Which would have made me happier than it did, if she hadn't been as un-enthused as I was about being at school.

So I go to choir and take up ALL my energy singing 2 songs over and over and over again. Our hardest songs to sing because they take the most breath. I couldn't breathe by the end of the class.
So, feeling as if I had heart failure, I trudged on to 2nd period.
Buchanan welcomed us to Global Studies with yet another story. I sit next to Brogin, so as usual, we were goofing off, finding better things to do than listen to Buchanan ramble on about an old lady pushing him around on a boat.
By the end of Global, I'm in a better mood thanks to Loginn and Brogin.(:

So, like our usual routine, Brogin grabs my hand and leads me around the school. For some reason, every day before 3rd period, we walk around the school holding hands.
This time, however, we saw Ryan. Awkward. hahaha. So Brogin let go of my hand and let me kiss Ryan before heading to Biology with him.
Brogin and I find it entertaining to clench our hands really tight as we walk and try to cause each other pain. It's what we do. So we walk into Bio with our hands red and aching. As always. :p

I get so irritated in that class... Sometimes my friends can seriously piss me off, and it's only in that class. I don't understand why. But good ol' Brogii caught on, and came to sit by me and cheer me up.
God I love that kid. So we joke around, get our work done, and then listen to his ipod and play his gameboy. Like a boss. He then decides to tell me that if I were not going out with Ryan, that HE himself would go afterh him. It was hilarious because Brogin kept asking questions and commenting about Ryan. It was pretty great, actually.
Then comes lunch. I went into the Art room with our group of friends and we sat at our usual table. Cracking jokes and telling weird stories, as always. With Brogin STILL bothering me about my boyfriend, I texted him because I was too lazy to go find him in the commons, and asked him if he had ever thought about dating another guy. Brogin was seriously convinced that Ryan could be bi and would date both of us. hahaha. Ohmygod it was the funniest shit ever.
I go into the hall, talk with Kenz for a while, get a text back from Ryan saying he thought about it once, but never seriously considered it. After hearing that, Brogin STILL had hope. :p
Oh, Brogi-Bear... You're so silly.
Our lovely lesbian friends came to join us in the hall before we proceed to 4th period...
Brogin and I have Jewelry.

We walk into class and I was determined to finish my Mario Star project. Eh, it's my first project, so of course it wasn't the best. But last week, Jake Miller saw it and fell in love with it, so I promised him I'd give it to him when I was done.
So after I finished sanding and polishing, it was done and Mrs. Gunnarson graded it. She gave me a good grade, and I handed it off to Jake. He looked confused as I stood in front of him holding it in my hand, just looking at him. And then he realized what was happening and was STOKED.
I was really happy to see him so excited about it, actually. He kept complimenting that I did such a great job. (I think he's blind, too. haha)
He was thrilled and he kept smiling at me afterwards. I gave it to him, and I think he tried to hug me, but because we don't know each other really at all, he didn't.
Brogin was not happy with me. We all know Jake Miller is attractive. But I wasn't flirting, I was just being nice. Brogin, calm down, hunney. I'm taken. ^_^

After Jewelry, we headed to Group. Every Monday, those few of us with problems get to skip out on 5th period and go to Group. We get to talk about recent events in our lives, eat whatever food Tori brings us, and goof off and have fun.
So, I sit between Ashlee and Brogin. It was great because Ashlee and Ken both decided to flirt with me today, and yet I spent the whole day with Brogin. :p
I put my legs on Brogin's, and we listened, talked, and had a good time, as usual.
Brogin's the only guy allowed in Group because we all wanted him there and he's gay, so sometimes he has stuff to talk about. We all love Brogin.(:

After Group, we are chilling in the commons. After talking with our friends, Ryan comes and finds us and by now it's just me, him, Brogin and Alaina.
I look at Brogin and notice he's STARING at Ryan. So, jokingly, I pushed Brogin away and told him to go to play rehearsal. He didn't get offended, he just laughed.
Ryan guessed that Brogin was attracted to him. DING DING DING, we have a winner. Congratulations. haha.

After school, I see JC Tallahan.. Boy was that interesting... God someone needs to kick his ass...
I also saw Scout and talked with her for a little bit. Things seem to be getting better with her... But still. I don't know if she's being real or not. Just being cautious.

Then I go to YoungLife. I leave a little early so I can talk with Robin before it all starts. I told her about recent events with Ryan, and I kept her up to date about my dad.
As people begin to show up, to my surprise, Ross shows up, and hugs me. Uhm, okay? haha I didn't know we were to that point, but whatever!
YoungLife started and I was talking a little more with him while hanging out with Codie and Sarah as well.
We played some tug-of-war, and then went inside for more hilariousness before sitting down and having our serious listening time..
I stood and sat by Ross because I figured we might as well become friends now.

After listening to Mark's story.. I got really emotional, and started crying outside, while waiting for Mark to open up the man-van.
Codie instantly caught on to how I was feeling, even before I was crying.
Then Sarah realized what was going on, and then I was constantly being hugged by her, Chris, and Codie.
After I stopped my tears, it was almost impulsive. I went over to Jared and hugged him. I was surprised when he didn't pull away. He said something to somebody that was like "Hey, if she's coming to me..." I didn't really pay attention. But he was being sweet. He just sat there and hugged me and made me laugh.
As I got over my problems, we piled into the man-van and headed to Cuppa Yo. We hung out there and then I planned on walking home until I met up with Steve, Nick, Lara, Darian, Ambralee, Michael and Austin. More than half of them were drunk as fuck. I was SO jealous.

I hung out with them for a while, but remembered my choir contest tomorrow, so went with my better judgement. Steve gave me a hug and I left the group with nobody noticing until I was down the road.
The best part of today comes next. It was really brief. But it happened. And I know there was a lot more beneath the surface of what we said.

Savi pulls up next to me. He asks what I was still doing out, and gave me a ride home. I told him I met up with some friends and talked with them for a while. I think he knew something was up. He asked how it went and I told him they were drunk and that they asked me to take some jello shots with them tomorrow, but I'm hanging out with Colton tomorrow, so I couldn't. He asked if I hung out with them a lot, I told him yes. We reached my house. I sat in the car for a few minutes and talked with him. I love talking with Savi because I can connect with him. He actually cares about people and I could see the concern for me in his face and hear the concern in his voice.
I told him that Mark's story touched me a lot and that I knew it would have an effect on my decisions later on. I know it'll do good things for me. And Savi was glad to hear that. He told me goodnight and drove off, leaving me to my thoughts.

Now here I am. Lying in bed. Ryan obviously passed out about an hour and a half ago.
Time for bed for me, too... I have a choir concert tomorrow and have to wake up early so I can shower and eat and look good tomorrow. Goodnight everyone...(:

p.s. My 16th birthday is in 8 more days starting tomorrow.(: