Butterfly.

I had a super small anxiety attack in Bio today. So I drew a butterfly on my wrist and named it after the first 4 people I could think of: Ken, Brogin, Steven and Brittany.
(For those of you who don't know... the butterfly is for The Butterfly Project for people like me, who cut. The butterfly is named after someone you care about. It's suppose to be a reminder that people love you and care about you. That way you don't cut yourself.)

Let me just say something about these 4.
They mean the world to me.
I love them so much, it's nearly impossible to explain.

I know I talk about how they mean a bunch to me, simply because of who they are.
But it's not just that.
Yeah. They are hilarious, genuinely nice, caring, crazy, and all that good shit.

But even when they ask me to hang out. It makes me happy because it's proof that they actually enjoy my presence. They aren't lying like so many other people do. They actually want to be around me. They actually DO love me like they say. <3

Also, I trust them with my life. And I mean that literally.

Reasons:
Brogin. When I was gonna go cut myself, Brogin was yelling at everyone to go stop me. He hangs out with me all the time and lets me that he values our friendship. Even at school sometimes he's give me a look of understanding when I'm having a bad day and he keeps people off my back. I know I can talk to him about anything and that's really relieving to me. He's such an amazing person, honestly. I see so much in the kid. He can bring a smile to my face no matter WHAT is happening in my life. He lets me know that he cares about me and loves me every time I'm around him.
Ken. Whenever I get upset, Ken will ask me what's going on. Sometimes in a bitchy, sarcastic way, but I know she actually cares. She hangs out with me almost as much as Brogin does, since the three of us are pretty inseparable sometimes. Sometimes throughout the day, she'll randomly come up and hug me or grab my hand or something. Sometimes simply because that's who she is, and sometimes to show me she loves me. I know I can tell her anything, but sometimes it's hard to open up to her because she never opens up to me. So it tends to feel like I'm just annoying her, even though I know it doesn't bother her.
Both Brogin and Ken are constantly keeping up on how I'm feeling and they comfort me and make me feel loved and cared for 24/7.
Brittany. She is always talking to me. Whether we're texting, on the phone, or in person. We're here for each other because we both struggle with hardcore depression and anxiety. We understand each other so well. And no matter what, we can always end up making each other smile and laugh. She's ran to my house or wherever I was at before when she needed help AND when I needed help. And I've done the same. I KNOW she'd do anything for me, just like I'd do anything for her, Ken or Brogin. And Steve.
Steven. Well... he was my first love. And I still love him.. I'm not still IN love with him, but I still love him dearly. He cares about me and comforts me just like everyone else does. It's usually only when we're alone that he can express that. But he's been here for me ever since I met him. He's one of my best friends. And I know I'm safe with him. Any time we hang out, he ALWAYS walks me home. No matter who we're with. HE walks me home. He keeps by my side at all times. If we're in a bad situation, he's gotten in front of me before to protect me from ANYTHING. And after he came over and we laid on the couch together and talked for an hour, I felt even more comfortable around him. I can connect with him on more levels than I thought. And every time he hugs me, he squeezes me tight at least once to show me that he cares.