All I've Ever Wanted Was To Be Accepted And Loved For Who I Was

What do I have to do to get that?
What do I have to do to be accepted by those around me?
What do I have to do to be loved and cared about?
What do I have to do to be a good person?

Because apparently I'm just a piece of shit human being now...
People who DO love me:
Ryan
Sarah
Ken
Brogin
Stuart
Brittany
Steve

That's it... Everyone else sees all the bad. Nobody is willing to get to know me..
Everyone wants to jump to conclusions about me being a terrible person...

What happened...?

Can I have my life back, please...?